LESS than 10 days left till the Beijing trip. Can you smell the excitement in the air?! I can! I definitely can!
Still, with less than 10 days left, having finished practically all that I need to do, gives me more time to worry about other things. Sure I’m practically done with packing, but I’m worried that what I have won’t be enough. It’s easy enough to tell yourself that Beijing has lots of places you can have a shopping spree in, but the other part of me that has money concern just jumps in. The other day as I was having dinner with a few friends, yes one of many lunches/dinners out before leaving, we passed by Zara and goodness to gracious it was one of the most difficult situations (recently) that I’ve been in. Zara was just brimming with autumn/winter clothes that shouted, “Buy me Christa, this is your style!” And to make matters even worse, my friend Meggy kept telling me that the styles I was picking out literally screamed “Christa” and “Winter”. Had to tell myself that Zara Beijing would keep me company. And with that sentence ending, yes, I google-maped Zara Beijing and found one near my university. Just great….more temptation.
Aside from that, worries about a lot of other things have been popping out. That whole dorm versus flat issue is one. And then some other things like worrying about our initial arrival in Beijing, worries about the bank and paying for the tuition and living expenses among other things. Sure, independent living is awesome, and being in a new environment is definitely thrilling, but it also has a lot of responsibility shackled along with it. It’s not a money-spending everyday-shopping hoo-hah. I’m there for educational purposes, and this independence that comes along with this opportunity is also me showing my parents that I can be a responsible adult who can handle money properly, take care of herself, and do well in her studies and in her goal to improve her Mandarin.
Last minute jitters? Definitely! Last minute leaving-my-parents-and-going-off-on-my-own-Philosophical-insights? definitely!
I’m shaking with excitement and fear.
Also, we’ve not yet left the shores of the Pearl of the Orient, and already conflict has begun to arise between friends. I guess, it’s really a part of growing up.